Wednesday, June 30, 2010

i dont really know what to say at this point.

i feel very hurt -- not by you, but by my own stupidity.

i let my mind run away with a fantasy.

i feel hollow, an empty space that was recently full of excitement.

as disappointment fills my cup, once half full, to the brink of spilling over. and now i can see the rim of the glass, so thin and fragile, so vulnerable. that same rim that seemed just moments ago to be able to hold the entire world! to be strong, solid, confident.  

how could i allow this to happen? i didnt. my life is not in my control. this is the universe doing exactly what i need. everything happens for a reason, but the reasons dont burst this clear bubble of ugh that surrounds my head and gut, at alternating times throughout the day.

onward and upward! seize the moment! capture the flag! get back on that horse! run, dont walk! the world is my oyster... but i dont think i have ever eaten oysters. with that, where is my fucking pearl? i know. his name is Jesus. and tomorrow he will be seven years old. well, technically, 49. old man ;) 

this is my path. i chose to allow the infinite universe to guide me through the darkness. 

i am strong. i am beautiful. i am exactly where i need to be, doing exactly what i should. 

thank you.

Friday, June 25, 2010

give infinitely

"give, give and give, infinitely"

when you give you lose nothing at all for you have received life itself - the whole universe - without paying.

you are the unique son or daughter of the infinite universe; it creates, animates, destroys, and reproduces everything necessary for you.

if you know this, everything will come to you in abundance.

from Zen Macrobiotics, by George Ohsawa

Philosophy in the Orient is the heart of teaching the constitution of the infinite universe, the kingdom of heaven. Its sole purpose is to help woman to understand this constitution so that she can realize her freedom, happiness, and health for herself and by herself.

The conception of the world and life, the constitution of the infinite universe, is translated first of all biologically and then physiologically. This is a firm foundation of all religions of the Orient.

Without living by these principles, one cannot understand or gain strength from one's religion and its teachings, a fact largely ignored by Western theologies.

If religions as a whole have lost their authority through the centuries, it is because of the neglect or ignorance of this same foundation. Accordingly, peace, freedom, health, and happiness are vanishing all over the world.

Jesus said:

If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed,
... ye shall say unto this mountain,
"remove hence to yonder place,"
and it shall remove;
and nothing shall be impossible unto you.

If you have faith, nothing shall be impossible to you.
If something is impossible to you, you have not as much faith as a grain of mustard seed.
Crimes, hostility, poverty, wars, and especially so-called incurable illness are all the end result of a lack of faith.

Happiness or unhappiness depends upon our behavior which is in turn controlled by our judgment. Faith is the solid foundation upon which judgment rises. 

Faith is judgment in infinity.

me an da buddha

buddha said, life is suffering.

i say, happiness is living.

DIVINE LIVING. everyday baby.